Wednesday, December 15, 2010

It's been a long long time since I last blogged. I realised the only reason I blog is because Im lonely and right now I feel god damn alone. There'll be more depressing posts now. It hurts so much to even think of letting go everything. Especially that one dream that I've always secretly have of us. I've always wanted my first love to be my last. I still love him.

Gee ♥ Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Monday, February 22, 2010

Everybody see's it's you I'm the one that lost the view Everybody says we're through I hope you haven't said it too So where Do we go from here With all this fear in our eyes And where Can love take us now We've been so far down We can still touch the sky If we crawl Till we can walk again Then we'll run Until we're strong enough to jump Then we'll fly Until there is no end So lets crawl, crawl, crawl Back to love, Yeah Back to love, Yeah Why did I change the pace Hearts were never meant to race I always felt the need for space But now I can't reach your face So where Are you standing now Are you in the crowd of my faults Love, can you see my hand? I need one more chance We can still have it all If we crawl Till we can walk again Then we'll run Until we're strong enough to jump Then we'll fly Until there is no end So lets crawl, crawl, crawl Back to love, Yeah Back to love, yeaaah Everybody see's it's you Well I never wanna lose that view So we'll crawl Till we can walk again Then we'll run Until we're strong enough to jump Then we'll fly Until there is no end So lets crawl, crawl, crawl So we'll crawl Till we can walk again Then we'll run Until we're strong enough to jump Then we'll fly Until there is no end So let's crawl, let's crawl, lets crawl Back to love Back to love yeah Back to love

Gee ♥ Monday, February 22, 2010

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The past two weeks had been rough. Right now things are slowly getting better. I just hope it will work out right this time. Two months of fued is more than i can take. It drained me. Now that that's ok, im dealing with my on-going assignments. One after another. It's pressurising especially when final year exams is in two weeks from now. I just wana get my first year over and done with cuz there's other things in life that im looking forward to.

Gee ♥ Sunday, February 21, 2010

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The first thing that was on my mind the moment i woke up this morning was him. It felt like waking up in a dream. It felt unreal but this is the path i've chosen for now. So i have to face every painful moment of it. There was a valentine's day song dedication hour at school today and a familiar song started playing. A gush of memories flashed in my head and tears rolled down my face. I couldn't hold myself together for a moment. I feel lost knowing that there's no one beside me to get me thru.

Gee ♥ Wednesday, February 10, 2010

It's only been a few hours but i wish i could see his face again. This is so hard but i know i made it seem easy. Im good at hiding my emotions. It's my weakness and strength. The thought of not being able to kiss those lips again kills me inside but this is a sacrifice i have to make. I love him enough to let him go. I wish him hapiness that i've never been able to give. Im not moving on. I just need time to find out what i really want at this point. p.s. Maybe not forever, but definitely always. Im sorry...

Gee ♥ Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Friday, February 05, 2010

It's raining heavily outside. Im home alone. Being in an empty house makes it harder to bear the loneliness. All i have is my blog and myself. So here i am. Listening to sad songs by myself. How pathetic. I cant help but to hear it over and over again. I've always loved this song.. This romeo is bleeding But you can't see his blood It's nothing but some feelings That this old dog kicked up It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see I've always been a fighter But without you I give up Now I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you've been needing to hear I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time Yeah, I will love you baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always If you told me to cry for you I could If you told me to die for you I would Take a look at my face There's no price I won't pay To say these words to you Well, there ain't no luck In these loaded dice But baby if you give me just one more try We can pack up our old dreams And our old lives We'll find a place where the sun still shines And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always

Gee ♥ Friday, February 05, 2010

Thursday, February 04, 2010

I fucking hate when im left hanging like this. Not knowing what's the outcome. It's kind of like i know what's gona happen but i dont really know.. but i just want it to get it settled. There's too much damage done. We're both emotionally exhausted. My soul is crumbling down. I cant handle it much longer. It's a burden to wait even for a few days. It's my last straw. I have nothing left in me. I cant even remember his smile. All i see is wrath and hatred. Im yearning for the love we had before. It was what made me strong. Now im weak and fragile. Is this what love is? It sure is not easy. I didnt know what i was in for. I hate the fact that im young and that im still learning.. because i made stupid mistakes and wasted something that could've been special. I dont know what else to think. My thoughts are blurred. My feelings are stirred. You're alone without your friends... but Im alone without you. p.s. I love my blog. It doesn't do anything but 'listen'.

Gee ♥ Thursday, February 04, 2010

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I cant sleep.. even though i want to close my eyes and dream that everything's perfectly fine. Im lost for words.. i dont know.. sigh..

Gee ♥ Sunday, January 10, 2010

aisyah . Gee